You were always my enemy and carefully crafted my demise

redxdress @ 2006-11-12T22:34:00

2006-11-13T05:34:10Z

i dont get it..
when things are going really well, why cant they just STAY that way.

i need to stop going to school or something, it stresses me, and other ppl out and i bet everyone would be a lot happier if school didnt exsist.

i wish that when things were perfect, the day after and the day after and the day after would be the same.

redxdress @ 2006-08-15T23:03:00

2006-08-16T06:05:31Z

school is NOT awesome.
being a junior doesn't feel cool, it feels weird and uncomfortable.
teachers are not good.
some people in my classes are not good.
but i need to suck it up.

oh, and for the record, i really love my boyfriend.

redxdress @ 2006-08-09T00:35:00

2006-08-09T07:29:44Z

i went to afi tonight.
finally saw davey. now im happy.
the end

redxdress @ 2006-05-17T20:22:00

2006-05-18T03:29:22Z

no one reads this, but i have nothing to do while my tv show is on commercial.

lets see...
8 more days and the school year is OVER! DONE!
im really stressed out with everything in these last days though.
im so ready to relax over summer, minus the fact that i have to go to summer school
for stupid P.E. i hate p.e., its so dumb, and stupid.

im having trouble dealing with the fact that my bf is graduating this year and going
off to college. he will be 30 minutes away, but i wont spend time with him a lot,
i barely get to now as it is. i want things to work out, really really badly.

EXCEPT, next weekend, we are going to DISNEYLIZZAND, im really pumped.

every year i cant get over how different everyone looks in their yearbook pictures.
everyone cut their hair, and me and annie grew it out. i guess thats because we are cool.
and the people with the spikey scene hair were not even like that, their hair was pretty
but OH surprise, they have gardens on their heads now. the friends i have are ones that
i thought i would not become close with.

i feel my entry cannot get any more exciting, so GOODBYE.

redxdress @ 2006-05-05T10:32:00

2006-05-05T17:28:05Z

my vision of a awesome prom is slowly dying.
thanks to a certain someone.
and i dont want to take my ap test.
and i just want basically curl up and die.

kdljfkldflksdf FUCKKKK.

redxdress @ 2006-04-22T00:26:00

2006-04-22T07:23:59Z

LyKeOmG he gives me BuTtErFliEs =]

redxdress @ 2006-04-11T20:49:00

2006-04-12T03:49:31Z

so lets see...

yesterday was taking back sunday
it was really amazing and cool and awesome

i broke my phone for good last night and i really
really really miss it.

i got a new one today thats kinda cute but not as cute.
its white, not my favorite color pink. gay.

me and nick went shopping and dinner for our 15month.
he bought me shoes. and its the same kind he has but
girl version. hahah uhh yeah.

oh i got my license yesterday too but im too scared to drive.

redxdress @ 2006-04-02T22:06:00

2006-04-03T05:07:07Z

today was my baby's bday
mine was yesterday so it was like bday weekend parrttttyyy
his parents took us to the ZOO today =]
and then we went to dinner and i had the best steak
the waitress said we were cute and that we must be
special & things because we have been together long
and we got ice cream.
and then we went to his house and rested
and then he took me home and stuff and stuff.
good day =]
p.s. i looovveeee him.

p.s.s. SCHOOL IS TOMORROW GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

redxdress @ 2006-03-31T22:40:00

2006-04-01T06:39:37Z

kailey & andrew took me out to dinner for my bday=]
and my bday is TOMORROW
SATURDAY
APRIL 1ST 2006
AND I WILL BE 16
AND IM SOOO EXCITED.

kailey is amazing.

and bye

redxdress @ 2006-03-29T23:39:00

2006-03-30T07:41:10Z

fall out boy was fun x a gagillion.

sonny has a beard thing now, and it makes him look dirty.
just uglier than he was the last time...

im thirsty & i miss my boy & i want it to be my bday
NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW.

my hair is greasy, and im borrreeeeeeeeeeeeedddd =[

redxdress @ 2006-03-29T12:05:00

2006-03-29T20:06:29Z

me and bri ate gelato.
me and bri were cool.
me and bri hung out with chelsea and sean.
except i did for only 15 minutes.
then i went with kyle and nick.
i missed him.
then we got food and ate it and i ate more
with bri and we sat and slept and i woke up
and i went home and slept more cause we
partied too much and now im here about to clean
my room and get ready so i can go hang out with
nick and kyle before we fall out boy it up.

i love biscuts with honey. yum, goodbye.

p.s. my bday is in 3 days.

redxdress @ 2006-03-27T19:37:00

2006-03-28T03:39:51Z

spring break '06 is dumb.
no sweet parties
no hot beaches
no late fun nights
no seeing boyfriend
yes gayness

my super sweet 16 is saturday.
if you didnt notice..i turn 16.
thats so weird. but hey, next
week i get my license. which
means i get to hang out with
more friends, and i get to be
with my bf all the time, it will
be the funnest times ever.

p.s. tonight is fucking stupid.

redxdress @ 2006-03-11T21:01:00

2006-03-12T05:04:13Z

i havent updated in a while....BECAUSE NO ONE READS THIS.
but oh well.

last night me and annie saw brokeback mountain. it was soo good and i cried like a little baby!
today we watched LION KING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was me and nicks 1year3month, and i didnt see him :[ i miss him
tomorrow is his grandparents 50th anniversary party, and im going.
im scared that they wont like me :[

TUESDAY IS ANNIES BIRTHDAY!!! and friday we are going out to dinner for it, and seeing SHES THE MAN. omg im sooo excited its going to be the funniest thing ever.

thurs=starting line, cartel, copeland
march29=fall out boy & all american reject
YIPPIE.

OH YEAH BY THE WAY, I GOT TO PLAY IN SNOW TODAY.
snowie snow snow snow snowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

redxdress @ 2006-02-18T19:31:00

2006-02-19T02:08:31Z

BEING SICK IS SO FUCKING STUPID.
friday night i was stuck in bed because i couldnt even move.
today im better, but i still feel bad AND the worst part
is i was supposed to hang out with nick tonight..but NOPE.
im sick. i BARELY BARELY get to EVER hang out with him anymore.
its really depressing, and i just hope that im better by monday
so we can spend the day together like planned.

i just watched waiting..it was really fucking stupid.
everyone said it was so funny, but it was the most worthless
movie of my life. i just wasted like an hour and a half.

my mom bought me the new matchbook romance cd while she was
in vegas, im gunna listen to it soon. im scared. im afraid
it might be not as good as their first cd.

im lonely in bed :[ the only thing keeping me company is the
stuffed giraffe my bf just got me.

redxdress @ 2006-02-15T21:34:00

2006-02-16T04:12:25Z

yesterday was valentines day.
me & my baby hung out all day long & then he took me to
CHIODOS, BOYS NIGHT OUT, & ARMOR FOR SLEEP.
it was so much fun. i hadnt hung out with him for a really
long time so it was nice to spend time out of school.
he got me the cutest card, and i love him so much.
really so much.

i also love annie & bri. they are the best.

and i have to study for vocabulary test tomorrow.
i dont want to.....

redxdress @ 2006-02-11T18:19:00

2006-02-12T01:00:47Z

last night i broke my pink razr
and it was really tragic
and i cried a bunch
my dad glued it back together and it looks
fine and stuff. but in the back of my mind i
know the wierd sound it makes now
when i open it is because it was almost killed.

today is me & nicks 1year1month, and i cant see
him, how lame is this. well valentines day is here
in like 3 days and i cannot wait omigosh.
nick, chiodos, boys night out, armor for sleep.
what a great mix.

im listening to brand new, and i love them.
and my tongue hurts but i cant stop playing
with it. =[

im tired & i have to babysit tonight

redxdress @ 2006-02-05T22:30:00

2006-02-06T05:08:11Z

last night, kaileys house.
i got to see her daddy, i havent seen him in forever.
he got us maggianos!! skdfjskdlfj YESSSSS.

nick got us out armor for sleep tickets for valentines daaayyy.

superbowl today, PITTSBURGH YAYYUHH. [i dont care]
commericals were funny.
there was one for a new show made by lorne micheals
and it looks sooo funny.

GREYS ANATOMY WAS INTENSEEEEEEEEEE.

i dont know why im telling you these worthless facts.

but ok.....BYE.

redxdress @ 2006-01-30T16:09:00

2006-01-30T22:47:20Z

everything is ok.
and i like it.
i love the fact that i have great friends.
except i miss the old days, a lot.
like my old friends and people i grew apart from
because even though we had differences and things
i miss them a lot. im happy things are picking
up where they left off.

valentines day is coming up, aw.

my grades are good.

my hair looks like a gross pumpkin with red thrown in
and yeah.

im getting my nails did soon.

yay lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee more.

redxdress @ 2006-01-21T15:11:00

2006-01-21T22:15:12Z

last night me, annie, and ali saw a movie =]
i love them.
im glad im realizing who my real friends are
and what not, and im glad im making new ones.
i feel much better about the whole friends
and social situation.

redxdress @ 2006-01-16T20:04:00

2006-01-17T02:43:23Z

i saw tristan and isolde with my baby today.
it was the best movie, i cried like 5 times.
i love movies, but theres nothing really out to see.

people keep talking about munich and syriana and stuff,
i refuse to see it. its just another sad excuse for
movies made by liberals basically putting the message
out that terroists are freedom fighters and what not.
bull shit they are. dumb people.

awwww tristan and isolde :] aw aw awa kjdfkjd

IM GOING TO SEE IT AGAIN!!!!

redxdress @ 2006-01-11T18:57:00

2006-01-12T01:35:54Z

i went back to school monday & its fucking miserable.
i hate it sososososo much.
on a higher note..today is me & nicks 1 year anniversary
thats amazing, & i love him :]

i am eating a chocolate chip cookie, its fucking gross
too many chocolate chips :[ :[ :[

watashi waaaaaa

redxdress @ 2006-01-07T20:47:00

2006-01-08T03:26:53Z

school in like, a day.
how shitty, i really dont wanna go back.

this break i didnt do much besides
hang out with my boy :]

i got good things for christmas though, thats
pretty awesome.

today me & annie went shopping & i got new stuff
at victoria's secret :] i love underwear.

um...bye. i wish i had an exciting life.

redxdress @ 2005-12-11T12:05:00

2005-12-11T18:45:00Z

11 months :]

redxdress @ 2005-12-05T14:29:00

2005-12-05T21:10:33Z

hospitals
kidneys
medicines
not seeing bf
behind in school
nothing on tv

=

SUCKS

redxdress @ 2005-11-24T21:21:00

2005-11-25T04:22:19Z

thanksgiving was thanksgiving.
nothing more nothing less.
although i wish it was something more.

i spent it with my family, who i love VERY much.
i would be no where without them.
i am SO lucky to have such a great family that
loves everyone and when everyone comes in the door
theres this energy thats amazing and everyone is
happy. we act like we havent seen each other in
years when we actually see each other everyday.

i am thankful for my friends too, and just everything
that has been provided for me. im thankful for god
and im starting to put him first again.
it feels good.

eh. but i feel empty right now.